Right Now

I don’t know if you’re here to stay. I don’t know if I want you to stay, or if I can settle my restless heart and wanderlust long enough to stay close to you.

What I know is that twice yesterday I fell asleep in your arms, even though I usually can’t sleep close to anyone at all. I know you make me laugh and you see the world in a way similar to how I see it. I know that this is the first time since November that I have started to forget and have started to understand that every relationship is different and that’s okay. And I know that I know you, that you’ve been one of my best friends for many years and there is something so gentle about the way you look at me, and something so natural about the way you slip your arm around my waist or rub my back before you walk away that is very right.

I don’t know what’s coming and I don’t know how things will change tomorrow or next week, much less when you return to Minneapolis and I finish my last semester, then set off to see the world. I just know that right now, I’m happy and I like being with you.